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Final for my Time Arts class. Nothing gets you in touch with your own anger quite like listening to this and thinking about all the times you’ve been objectified and belittled.

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Yes, finally someone understands

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I love how the greatest joke in anime history is even joked about in anime.

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Anonymous said: In gender therapy, I've been asked why I began really thinking I was trans so 'late' (I'm 22). I find this a really hard question to answer, for me it's along the lines of "because I didn't care about gender at all and my main identity was that I'm smart and I had other problems, like depression", but this answer feels not quite right. It's really hard to find the right words - how would you answer this?




Here’s a big reason why plenty of us might not figure out we’re trans until we’re 20, or 30, or 60:

Of all the perspectives on transness that are offered in mainstream society - whether they’re “he or she?” episodes of Maury, gawking documentaries, or cheap “tr*nny” jokes everywhere we turn - not a single one ever suggests that this could actually be you.

People ask us why we didn’t know sooner. Well, maybe there was no way we could have known! The world doesn’t readily grant us access to the information we would need to know what it is we’re experiencing, to put it in the proper context, to understand what it is we are, or to pursue the things we need to help ourselves. The world makes us fight fucking tooth and nail just to find what the goddamn words are for what we are. It discourages us at every turn from even being this, and makes us go through hell to access what we need just to live our lives.

And then the world asks why, in the face of all this, we didn’t do something about it sooner. Why, in a world where everyone is assumed to be cis and transness is some weird thing that’s super rare and only happens somewhere else far away, it would take us decades to realize we’re not cis. Well, what the hell were they expecting? We live in a world that fucking punishes children and then teenagers and then adults, too, when we ever dare to voice that sentiment. And they expect a vulnerable, innocent child to somehow know all that, and to say it out loud, in a world like this?

When I was a kid I didn’t know it was even a possibility for me to be a girl. I didn’t know this was something that could happen. It was positioned so far outside of my reality, I didn’t even reach the point of wanting it but dismissing it as impossible or infeasible. It didn’t even occur to me to want this; it was something so unknown to me it would have been like wanting to be a unit circle or an Einstein-Rosen bridge. Being a girl, of course, is actually possible - but nobody told me that!

My entire life as a kid was so consumed with living up to others’ expectations and doing what everyone told me to do, I didn’t have time to think of who I was, or what I wanted, or even envision myself as a person in my own right with my own goals and image of who I am. I was just this little kid who apparently did really well on IQ tests and got promoted ahead by two whole grades and was expected to ace every class and some day I would go to college and that was the sum total of who I was and there was nothing, nothing else, not a single stand-out feature of who I was as a person beyond what I could do at school to impress a bunch of adults.

It took me until I was 19 and almost died, to realize I might actually just straight-up drop dead at any time, and that I needed to start figuring out what mattered to me and who I was and what I wanted my life to be like.

From that moment, it was maybe 6 months before I started putting on makeup for the first time.

Everyone develops as a person at their own pace, and there can be any number of factors that interact to influence how and when we come to understand who we fundamentally are. The challenges of being trans on top of that are enormous. A therapist - particularly a therapist working with trans people - should be the first to recognize this. They are professionals. It’s their job to know these things.

This is such a fabulous and spot on answer and I can totally relate. I had been taught that transgender people had to be weirdo versions of child molesting drag queens. I buried any thought of gender so deep in shame and fear that it took me until my late 30’s to even start digging myself out of it. I’ve become so buried in hiding myself that I’ve focused on the wants and needs of everyone else, so creative in creating personas for myself that I’ve had to get a running start to break through each one to get to the real me, and so brainwashed into wrong thinking that I have to remind myself to love myself and to stop being mean to myself.

After society leads you to this poisonous pool, it then has the gall to both be surprised and angry that you’ve worked through it all and are ready to be true and it asks why you didn’t come to this realization sooner. Well fuck that and fuck asshole gatekeepers who would treat you that way.

I’ll bet this question generates lots of answers and I hope you find the ones that ring true to your experience. Hugs and love for you along the way!

This speaks to me. Loudly.

I had an inkling I was trans in my early teens, but then my father found my stash of women’s clothing and makeup, and he put the scare to me. I wound up shoving all those feelings deep into the closet, so deep I nearly completely forgot about them. Then in college I discovered IRC, and with it, other trans women. It took about two years, tops, from that moment to me realizing that I was a trans woman myself. But that was two years of sorting through every negative stereotype about trans women, realizing how false or overly simplified they all were, just to stop denying my own truth.

Why didn’t I know sooner? Because of you cis folk, that’s why. Because of crappy comedies that went out of their way to make fun of our existence and to make light of our tragedies—and the ones that laughed at those comedies. Because of talk shows that trot us out for novelty’s sake, and at best hint there might be a lesson to learn from us, without ever stating which lessons the audience should have learned. Because of erotica that objectifies and overly sexualizes us for cis people but doesn’t give any insights into what our sexualities, in all their diversity, are actually like.

Because of how we’re misgendered during life and after death. Because misgendering is violence against identity, and usually accompanied by physical violence.

Because despite knowing there are hundreds of thousands, if not millions, of us in the United States alone, spotting any of us in a crowd is still painfully rare, because so many of us are stealth, and many more avoid going outside to avoid misgendering and violence. Because even if two trans folk do recognize one another in a crowd, we’re not likely to acknowledge one another lest we draw attention—and misgendering and violence—to ourselves.

Because all these things I mention, and many more, lead to a climate where trans folk are invisible—and where visible, made to pay for it. Because this invisibility means trans folk have few role models and few community ties. Because how could I know sooner if I don’t have some sort of role model or community tie to help me gain the knowledge?

Because pretty much everyone signs on to all these ridiculous ideas of how sex and gender works, without a moment to think critically about any of it until those ideas finally run aground against our sense of self.

Because cis folk rarely have to challenge those ideas of sex and gender to the extent that trans folk do. Because cis folk are happy to keep up the illusion that there are only two sex chromosomes, two sets of genitalia, and two genders—and that they all line up neatly.

Because cis folk would rather feel normal by creating an Other to compare against, than recognize and appreciate the actual variety of sexes and genders in the world.

Because of you cis folk. That’s why.

Uh, ditto. I couldn’t have said it better myself. ;)


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Anonymous said: So, what's your view on trans people then? I mean, trans men were raised with female socialisation, so do they get to call themselves feminists? Since they've had to deal with misogyny first hand? And what about trans women? Since misogyny is something that they've come into, and often still with a good deal of innate male entitlement?




Trans men are men. I’m not going to invalidate their gender identity by saying “men can’t ID as feminist, but trans men can”.

And trans women are women, so obviously they can ID as feminist.

"Innate male entitlement" go fuck off w your sex essentialist transphobic bullshit anon fuck right off into the sun trans women don’t keep some sort of weird "innate" male anything just because of the body they were born with they’re fucking women fuck off


Reblogging for the commentary. I didn’t even touch that transphobic shit and I should have. Sorry for that. 

Thanks for the apology, stfufauxminists. :)

Little yard hamsters: honestly from the way cis people talk about how their sexualities work...






honestly from the way cis people talk about how their sexualities work it seems that they literally view people as genitals and thats it. walking, talking genitals. and if those genitals turn out to be different from what is originally expected then the cis will feel deeply unsettled and suddenly…

why do we have to say cis people instead of bigoted people. im comfortable in my own body. i got lucky, as did many other people who respect the trans community. are you trying to ruin other peoples respect for the community?

  1. because im not talking about bigoted people im talking about cis people
  2. youre not lucky for being cis
  3. trans people are capable of feeling comfortable in their bodies
  4. the fact that your respect for trans people is conditional and so easily tarnished says a lot more about you than it does about the trans community 

1. ok but not all cis people disrespect the community is what i was saying
2. that came out wrong. im not saying its bad to be trans, because its a natural thing that many are and i respect it unconditionally (see #4). i just meant that its not bad that im cis. im comfortable with what i have :)
3. yeah thats true but it just seemed that you dont from the post. but i dont know you and it just seems like most trans people arent comfortable with their bodies, but you know i cant speak for the community
4. no, no, i have full respect and always will and i wont judge an entire community based on one person. i just meant that people who are already transphobic dont want to become educated when they see stuff that goes against themselves.

i never said all cis people disrespect the trans community 

if i had specified and said “some cis people” it would have given cis people a slip that says “oh it’s fine you’re not one of tHOSE guys haha continue on your merry way” when that’s not at all what im aiming for. i want cis people to question themselves and analyze their behavior because that’s what youve got to do in order to ever grow as a person

and “are you trying to ruin other peoples respect for the community?” implies that whomever you’re referring to has a preexisting “respect” for trans people but it is easily damaged by me, a single trans person’s thoughts on the subject which says to me that whomever youre talking about really doesnt respect trans people very much at all, so i could not care less about irritating their sensitive feelings by generalizing them in a tumblr post

educating some people (people who seem to be genuinely misinformed and willing to learn and correct their behavior) can be alright and ill do it nicely or whatever but im not gonna waste my time on people who wont bother changing

i dont care nearly enough to try and politely “educate” people who think people like me are fundamentally off putting. 

Amen, dude. Amen.

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'tsundoku' - the Japanese word for buying books & not reading them, leaving them to pile up. Who else is guilty of this?


'tsundoku' - the Japanese word for buying books & not reading them, leaving them to pile up. Who else is guilty of this?